I had managed to speak to a family member I knew who had had a tough time the other year, surprisingly it was her husband who rang back and told me of his own struggles with anxiety. I suddenly felt When you know you have a therapist appointment booked but you are literally unravelling by the day, another 24 hours seamed an eternity. My husbands’ cousin, who I had already spoken to about what was occurring said speak to his therapist and dropped her a line to ask if she could squeeze me in. Now everything in me wanted to hide away and when the cousin rang again, I didn’t pick up the phone. I felt that I Couldn’t speak to anyone, I didn’t Want to speak to anyone. I just looked at my phone as it rang out as I sat sobbing and feeling utterly hopeless and heavy inside. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to curl up in a ball. I text him saying I didn't want to talk. ‘This is exactly why you need to call her.’ He said, ‘she’s free in an hour.’
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